fear felt and transformed

i wake up to a day of deliverance
sinless possibilities play out perfectly impermanent
change is the order of the day
transformation
this is the play station
dread met me at first light
another day started in anxiety and quickly reined through the righteousness of divine breath
embodied awareness
consciousness stilled to distill existence to liquid that fills my morning martini cup, brimming with barely held bliss that comes from this mystery made manifest through release
let go
let go
let go
and let god take over
realizing that god is plotting nothing short of awe, and living within, asking for surrender.
i chose this story, this scenario, this lifetime.
i,
as the i and i,
as the divine chose this lifetime to live and play gaily,
givin it up daily
sometimes crying and going insane only to come back out another way
slaying old self to keep on praying playfully...
yeah, this is what i wanted.
i've lived a million lifetimes to get here, and now all i need is line-layin.
deep breath...
game on.